Anxiety, Restlesness and Stress....my life in a Nutshell

Charming title isn't it? I mean do I know how to entertain or what? It's a daily battle for me, the stress of my life, work and school, but I manage somehow. Recently I started college; Oh,  how I love that word. You know for the first time in my life I feel smart? Crazy I guess, but true and just saying that word (college) sounds so awesome. For the first time in my life and I am doing something for me and it feels fabulous! However it is also the cause for anxiety and such, you see I work a full-time job and go to school and try and put my kid through college as well. A lot to take on for a single mom my age, by the way that is 41. : ) With all this going on it seems I have built up some  stress and s the doctor said I need to relax and he gave me some meds and told me too chill. He may or may not have also said that my blood pressure was a bit high and my cholesterol is not that great either. What? I said I was 41 and it's partly hereditary so. : p

So anyway here I sit on my couch surrounded by Kleenex and empty cups and scattered papers, drinking a glass of wine and it's only day 2 of Spring break and I find myself wanting to clean! Yep, that's me ...no rest for the wicked. I compulsively stare around at my surroundings and silently cringe. I talk to myself and say "Shut up Michele and drink another glass of damn wine." So I do..and sit and stare at the table that needs cleaning, ask myself when was I going to get to cleaning the kitchen and fridge out? Telling myself I need to get up and do something instead of nothing because I feel guilty and lazy. You know what? That's okay , cause really I am lazy today and there's nothing wrong with that. 

Sometimes we don't let ourselves relax and that's silly. We tell ourselves " Well, my house is a mess, yeah; well...by who's standards? Who cares?! No one does. Say it again to yourself NO ONE DOES! It's true and it's fine, we need to quit talking ourselves out of life and start enjoying it a little. Because before you know it POOF! It's gone.So do your self a favor today, pour yourself a drink, plop that ass in front of the t.v. or read a book and

  C H I L L ....O U T!